Most of us with Type A personalities have a tendency to hit it hard because we do everything BIG. In my case, this applied to drugs and alcohol as well.
On October 14th I will celebrate 14 years of hard-earned sobriety. I fight for it every single day and know that I can never go back to that life.
In fact, I have told my friends that if they ever see The Buckster with a beer in his hand they should just walk away and never talk to me again – because bad shit is on its way.
The problem with those of us who have Type A personalities (aka “Asskickers”) is that we think we can handle it. We think we can be that open-bar, attaboy, time-wasting glad-hander at the bar with our office colleagues.
We think that we have it under control. We think that everyone likes us in that drunk or high state.
You can fake the funk and be a functioning addict, but eventually the game will catch up with you – player!
The final score will be your death, someone else’s death (i.e.: car accident), or you getting sober. Those are the only three choices. No one EVER drinks less or takes less over time.
That’s a fact.
One of the many stupid things I did to hide my addiction was to drink a six-pack of beer on the drive home from work, so that when I grabbed a beer out of the fridge my wife would think it was the first one and not the seventh.
What a dumbass I was.
I’m lucky that she stayed by The Buckster’s side and supported me through my recovery. I’m also lucky to have never killed anyone while I was drinking and driving.
If you are doing those same types of stupid tricks, STOP!
If you are an asskicker like me, you can do ANYTHING you set your mind to. That includes getting sober.
If you can white-knuckle it, do that. If you need to see a counselor, or go to a program, do that. If you need to check yourself into rehab, do that.
Don’t give a shit what others think, and get ready to lose some fake friends along the way.
Remember that it’s about you, your family, your life, and your career.
Those four things are worth fighting for, and worth becoming and staying sober for.
Almost 14 years into my fight with addiction and I can say that becoming sober is my greatest accomplishment.